The dreaded day happened last week. Everything came crashing down all in one day and I lost everything. I didn’t know I could lose so much in such a short period of time..I know I have been waiting for this to happen for so long but I didn’t realize that it would hurt this bad. My relationship with my grandmother is strained to the point where I can barely look at her the same anymore when I go back to Helena. I finally let the first person I ever loved go for good this time. I go back and forth between towns with not a real home anymore. I miss my friends…more than anything. It hurts my heart so much that I don’t get to see them a lot. I try to keep myself busy so I don’t have to think about all these things much but nights like tonight everything just catches up to me. I try to be strong around my mom because I know she expects it from me but right at this very moment all I want to do is cry…and hope that this is all a dream and that I will wake up soon. But the truth is I just have to cope…and bare through all of this until I get to college in Fayetteville in August. So until next time..I guess I’ll just keep hoping and everyone please pray for my family and I.
Thank you so much! Don’t be jealous because you are absolutely gorgeous! :)
